yipee yay yay

Out from nowhere, i seem to be reborn again!

Is this permanent or merely a transitional phase i have to go through and get myself all hyped up for nothing? But i guess R is right..i can't stay behind my wall constantly, fearing this and that. I make myself miserable. It's time for some hammering and tearing down. I just need a bigger weapon. Where is the support?

PUSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Somehow or rather, i tend to smile like a goon uncontrollably when my thoughts sway like a baby's swinging bundle-like pram hung on the ceiling. The mentality of a baby is fascinating and attractive! The baby knows what he wants and goes for it, be it screaming his lungs out or making a big fuss out of everything for no apparent reason, or even through the soft approach of looking fondly with his big round eyes. How lovely. What is crucial is that he gets his aim. ANDDDDDDDD that is what i should adopt. A baby! Ha...no...the baby's technique of harmless manipulation with determination.

I am working on it. Lalula...

dance dance revolution!

Headed down to the Anti-drug dance competition yesterday to excitably watch my girl dance to groovy beats! The whole event was unexpectably eye-mesmerizing, causing me to drool with envy and follow my gaze to every hip-thrusting and leg-stamping the dancers moved along to. One word..COOLamamalicious!

My girl is someone i can't let go of, no matter what disaster decides to fall upon me. She never fails to bring a smile to my face, especially since i tend to come across as stand-offish (as my beloved big guy has claimed), thus the sight of her lightens up all signs of those grumpy lines across my forehead.

Love you!

My social circle has been highly neglected and left to collect dust. Guilty as i may, i don't know if layang-ing is the right way to approach this issue. Will i follow up? Or leaving them to build their own coffins again? This one week may be a great way to re-build relationships, but this has to be done selectively as well, else one week will never be sufficient for entertaining those i won't be bothered to maintain the constant smiling and coming up with topics. Sounds tedious doesn't it? Ha. It didn't seem so last time. I guess age has really caught up with me, and the challenge of my work has left me breathless. The lack of energy to socialise isn't something which i dread though. In fact, i do welcome it to a certain degree, as it leaves me with much more ME-time!

I do need some ompf in my life. Something that brings me to life after work, instead of dragging my monotonous feet back home to the black box and sleeping device. SOMEONE GIVE ME ICECREAM!

life a jest

Everything seems to be revolving hurricane-like in front of me. Does it swirl my thoughts further?
Aimless, Worthless, Loveless, Careless, Assless..ha

Attachment issues..i can't let go. Simple as that. Time will tell..but do i need more than five years?